<\/p>\nSix months ago today, I was sicker than I’d ever been in my life.<\/p>\n
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Six months ago today, I made a decision I’d never thought I’d make.<\/p>\n
Six months ago today, my infant daughter was delivered via C-section, eight weeks before her due date.<\/p>\n
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Six months ago today, my Tirzah Mae was born.<\/p>\n
She spent her first 26 days outside the womb in the NICU. She was fed through her veins at first, and then through a tube into her stomach, finally at the breast. She went from an incubator under bili-lights to the incubator without then to an open crib. <\/p>\n
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She’s spent the last 155 days with us. She is fed at the breast, sleeps near us, is warmed by our warmth when she needs it.<\/p>\n
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Five months out for just the one month in. <\/p>\n
The books say that parents never forget their preemies’ births, their hospitalizations, their difficulties. And maybe the books are right. <\/p>\n
But already, the memories start to fade. I forget how tiny she was, how helpless. I forget how desperate we were. I forget that she isn’t just another baby.<\/p>\n
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When people ask her age, I tell them she’s about six months – starting to leave off “but she was born two months early”. <\/p>\n
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Six months makes a big difference.<\/p>\n
One thing hasn’t changed in those six months though. <\/p>\n
I still look at her little fingers, so perfectly formed, now full of flesh where once was only skin and bone. I wonder at them – how perfect, how delicate, how complete<\/em> they are. <\/p>\n Eight weeks early, she was still complete. She was a baby, a human fully formed though immature.<\/p>\n I become sentimental, my thoughts meander.<\/p>\n What can I say that means anything, on this day six month out?<\/p>\n Perhaps the only thing I can say is to sing:<\/p>\n “‘Tis grace hath brought us safe thus far Today, I am thankful for God’s grace. God’s grace in granting me life, in granting Tirzah Mae life. God’s grace in eight extra days in the womb. God’s grace in 26 short days of the NICU. God’s grace in 155 long days at home. God’s grace in sleepless nights, in pumping and shield use. God’s grace in spit up and diapers. God’s grace in baby laughter and Tirzah Mae recognizing herself in the mirror. God’s grace has been omnipresent.<\/p>\n Thank You, thank You, Gracious God.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Six months ago today, I was sicker than I’d ever been in my life. Six months ago today, I made a decision I’d never thought I’d make. Six months ago today, my infant daughter was delivered via C-section, eight weeks before her due date. Six months ago today, my Tirzah Mae was born. She spent … Read more Thankful Thursday: Six months ago today<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[42,1340],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15914"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15914"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15914\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16029,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15914\/revisions\/16029"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15914"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15914"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15914"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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\nAnd grace shall lead us home.”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
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