{"id":17863,"date":"2017-04-05T07:01:57","date_gmt":"2017-04-05T12:01:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/?p=17863"},"modified":"2017-04-04T21:00:07","modified_gmt":"2017-04-05T02:00:07","slug":"repeating-my-fathers-words","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/2017\/20170405-17863.htm","title":{"rendered":"Repeating my Father&#8217;s words"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>One of the most fascinating parts of being the mother of a verbal toddler is having a window into Tirzah Mae&#8217;s thoughts.<\/p>\n<p>Her internal dialogue is external. She speaks whatever is on her mind.<\/p>\n<p>When she&#8217;s debating whether to follow my instructions or not, she repeats my common refrain: &#8220;You have a choice&#8221; and congratulates herself with my own &#8220;good decision.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And then there are the dogs. Tirzah Mae is terrified by dogs &#8211; and our next door neighbor has three or four large ones that bark often.<\/p>\n<p>When Tirzah Mae sees or hears them, she often runs to me in fear pronouncing &#8220;Doggie woof-woof!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ll remind her that the doggies are behind the fence, that they can&#8217;t hurt her. And I&#8217;ll let her hang on to my leg as long as it takes before she resumes whatever she was doing.<\/p>\n<p>But after dozens or hundreds of reminders, Tirzah Mae has started reminding herself. She&#8217;ll be outside playing and the dogs will bark. Then I&#8217;ll hear her reminding herself &#8220;Behind the fence, can&#8217;t hurt you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p>Hearing her childlike trust in my pronouncements, hearing how she is constantly reminding herself of the truth that came (originally) from my lips, I am challenged.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m challenged because, while I&#8217;m not afraid of dogs, there are plenty of other things I&#8217;m afraid of. And I debate obedience more often than I care to admit.<\/p>\n<p>Will I respond with the irritation I feel or with the soft answer I know God desires me to use? Will I dwell in the fear-world that says I&#8217;ll never have friends in this still-sometimes-strange-seeming-place or will I continue to reach out to people? Will I believe the inner voice that says I deserve [a bath, a plate of nachos, to not be touched for just a few minutes] or will I believe that serving my family is a privilege? Will I let myself be lured into self-pity over not having time to blog or will I trust that God has called me into this time and season and that it is good, even if I&#8217;m not blogging all about it?<\/p>\n<p>Tirzah Mae&#8217;s internal dialogues spoken out loud challenge me to reframe my own internal dialogues.<\/p>\n<p>Instead of running over my own words again and again and again, I would do better to repeat my Father&#8217;s words. He is trustworthy.<\/p>\n<p>I need to remind myself of the truth of God&#8217;s word.<\/p>\n<p>When I want to respond with irritation, I can remind myself of God&#8217;s patience with me. I can remind myself that I want my words to &#8220;bring grace to all that hear&#8221; (Eph 4:29). When I feel alone, I can remind myself that Jesus was rejected by those he came to serve &#8211; and I can remind myself that I have been given the &#8220;Helper, to be with [me] forever&#8221; (John 14:16). When I want to tell myself that I deserve my own comfort, I can remind myself of Christ who &#8220;though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant&#8221; (Phil 2:6-7). When I am tempted to self pity, I can remember that &#8220;for those who love God all things work together for good&#8221; that I might be &#8220;conformed to the image of his Son&#8221; (Rom 8:28-29). <\/p>\n<p>Like Tirzah Mae, I can repeat my Father&#8217;s words, reframing my internal dialogues to conform to the truth as He has revealed it.<\/p>\n<p>Lord, help me to do so, day by day.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>One of the most fascinating parts of being the mother of a verbal toddler is having a window into Tirzah Mae&#8217;s thoughts. Her internal dialogue is external. She speaks whatever is on her mind. When she&#8217;s debating whether to follow my instructions or not, she repeats my common refrain: &#8220;You have a choice&#8221; and congratulates &#8230; <a title=\"Repeating my Father&#8217;s words\" class=\"read-more\" href=\"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/2017\/20170405-17863.htm\">Read more <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Repeating my Father&#8217;s words<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17863"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17863"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17863\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17939,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17863\/revisions\/17939"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17863"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17863"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17863"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}