“Delight yourself also in the Lord,
\nAnd He shall give you the desires of your heart.”<\/i>
\nPsalm 37:4<\/p>\n
It’s probably the one Scripture I have the most trouble with. Does God really<\/strong> promise to give me the desires of my heart when I delight in Him?<\/p>\n ‘Cause I’ve been delighting–and still so many of my desires remain unfulfilled.<\/p>\n I’ve had women quote this verse to me as a promise that I’ll marry someday. I don’t want to believe them.<\/strong> Because what if that is<\/i> what this verse is saying–yet I never do get married? What if I cling to this as a promise when that isn’t<\/i> what God intended–and I end up a bitter old spinster?<\/p>\n How many times have I begged God to take away my desires? “Lord, if this isn’t Your desire for me, may I not desire to be married. If it isn’t Your will for me to be a mother, take away this desire to be one. If you don’t want me to foster or adopt, then take away this yearning inside of me.”<\/p>\n Can I take His silence as confirmation? That His will is to fulfill my desires?<\/p>\n I dare not do so<\/strong> and place words that He has not spoken into His mouth.<\/p>\n But here, as I long intensely for what I cannot have, I am tempted to believe that God is not good. I am tempted to think that He is the ultimate tease, awakening my heart to dream only to dash my dreams.<\/p>\n How many time has this happened over the years? Yes, not so solidly as this time, but how many times has my heart risen only to drop to the depths?<\/p>\n Years ago, I wrote these words:<\/p>\n I’ve been seeking I’ve been delighting I don’t understand I don’t know I am clay This verse remains the most difficult one in my mind. I don’t understand it. I don’t know what it means. I don’t know how to take it.<\/p>\n So I move a verse further and cling to verse 5.<\/p>\n “Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.”<\/i><\/p>\n So I commit my desires to Him, daily pouring out my heart, raising my requests to Him, begging yet again that He would conform my desires to His. <\/p>\n And then I choose to trust in Him, that He shall bring His good purposes to pass in His perfect timing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" “Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4 It’s probably the one Scripture I have the most trouble with. Does God really promise to give me the desires of my heart when I delight in Him? ‘Cause I’ve been delighting–and still so many of my … Read more Desires of my heart<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[21],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2829"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2829"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2829\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2829"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2829"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bekahcubed.menterz.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2829"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nBut I’m not seeing
\nWhere are those things
\nYou were going to add?<\/p>\n
\nBut I’m not sighting
\nWhere are those dreams
\nYou said You’d fulfill?<\/p>\n
\nWhy You’ve got me in this place
\nThis life that I’m living
\nis so far from my dreams
\nI can’t understand
\nWhat it means<\/p>\n
\nWhy it’s so
\nBut You are Lord
\nSpeak Your word
\nI will go<\/p>\n
\nHave Your way
\nYou are Lord
\nSpeak Your word
\nI will obey<\/i><\/p>\n