I have some serious thinking to do. The Key Laborers Retreat I didn’t attend impacted my life greatly. The speaker talked about how any goal other than Christ’s glory is an idol. Talk about immediate conviction. As my small group shared their thoughts and recollections, I was struck to the heart. I do so many things–so many good things–but all too often, my goal is to fulfill myself or to “do something for God” rather than to truly worship God with all I do.
That was Wednesday afternoon. Wednesday night after Z-360 (the youth group I sponsor for), Jason (the youth pastor I serve under) approached me. He shared that he felt like God was telling me to slow down, focus–gave me a few sheets of questions and Scriptures he thought God wanted him to share with me. I got home and studied them–ouch. Martha and Mary–how long must I study those passages before I learn something? Luke 10:40 says, “But Martha was distracted with much service.” Ouch. How often am I distracted by all my service? Z-360, Nursery, Food Net, Sunday School, Discipling and being discipled–Driven to make something happen; forgetting to sit at Christ’s feet. Jesus’ response is so fitting, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.” In reality, my service is filthy rags–it will be destroyed. Yet there is one thing that will not destroyed, and that is what is done in Christ. Lord, give me the grace to not be distracted with much serving and rather to sit at your feet.