Walnut, Nebraska

The state of Nebraska is littered with dozens of defunct towns. In the days of horses and wagons, they were living, breathing communities with a general store and a post office–maybe a school or a church.

Walnut, Nebraska, now little more than a memory and a decrepit building on my Uncle Richard’s property, is one such town. My great-Grandma Louise Cook was the postmistress for Walnut Grove Township and ran the general store, supplying the surrounding farms with news and goods.

Grandma Louise owned the general store with her husband Ben Marshall. Back then the store was across from my Uncle Dean’s house–that is, the house where his widow lives now. Ben and Louise were in the process of moving to a new store–the store that still stands today–when Ben Marshall died in the Spanish flu epidemic of 1918. Louise had a four-year-old son and a child on the way and the contents of the general store were mostly packed inside their new house–the home my Uncle Richard lives in now.

Louise held up admirably under the circumstances she had been given. She settled the new store, bore her son, Ben Jr, and cared for her older son, who was crippled by polio in the years after the death of his father. She was still a widow at the time of the 1920 census, with her occupation listed as “Salesmistress” of the “General Store.”

Some time later, Louise married my grandfather, Orval Anthony Cook. Orval was four years younger than she, and at the time of the 1920 Census, was listed as a laborer on the “home farm” owned by his parents.

Louise continued to run the store and be the Walnut Grove Postmistress throughout the Great Depression. The postmistress job was a good, steady income that enabled the family to weather the depression. The general store enabled many other families to weather the Depression. Often, families from the surrounding farms would purchase their groceries at the general store on credit they could not afford to repay. Grandpa Orval would go about to try to collect bills and often came home with an animal or two.

The Nebraska GenNet Project has a map of the Walnut Grove Township from the 1920 Atlas of Knox County. The northeast corner of the map is a snapshot into my family history.

Map of Walnut, Nebraska

Benj C. Marshall, whose property sits near the center of the extract above, was my great-grandma Louise’s first husband. By the time this atlas was published, he was already deceased and Louise was running the General Store on their property by herself. Her property was bounded on the west by the property belonging to her father, Herman Block.

By the southeast corner of Herman’s property, Orval Anthony Cook (who would marry Grandma Louise and become my great-grandfather) was working on the “home farm” belonging to his father Willie G. Cook. Frank E. Butterfield, who owned property sprinkled throughout the extract above, was Orval’s uncle.

The very corner property, which extends into Jefferson Township (and possibly into Washington Township as well), belonged to Nels Nelson. Nels’s granddaughter Carol would one day marry Louise and Orval’s son, my Grandpa Ronald.

Which brings me to today.

Walnut, Nebraska no longer exists as a town–but it still exists.

This is my mother-land, my home-place. While I never lived in Walnut, Nebraska, I still grew up there.

I grew up riding north over the “Big Crick”, turning west onto what was Benj C Marshall’s land. I waved to my Uncle Richard before driving past the old General Store.

I grew up “romping” through Walnut hills, “wading” in Walnut’s “Big Crick”, roasting wienies with Walnut wood.

While few, if any, will recognize the name “Walnut, Nebraska”, those that do think of it fondly.

Walnut, Nebraska?

Walnut is where my family is from.


Thankful Thursday: Family History

Today I’m thankful…

…for the story of God’s mercy, poured out upon my family from generation to generation

…for the heritage of teachers in our family–from Mary Helen Nelson (my great-grandma) to Carol Pierce (my grandma) to Kathy, Alice, Martha, Rachel, Patty, and my mother.

Mary Helen Nelson's Teaching Certificate

Mary Helen Nelson’s Teaching Certificate, 1918

…for the generations before who compiled family trees or otherwise collected memorabilia (Special thanks to Ernest Clay, who collected the Clay history back to my great, great, great grandfather Claus Nelson aka Charles Nelson Clay born in Sweden in 1822.)

…for the pictures my grandma has collected, including helpful notes whenever possible

Grandpa Pierce and Grandpa Cook

Great-Grandpa Frank Ernest Pierce and Great-Grandpa Orval Anthony Cook

Note on back of previous picture

Note on back of previous picture

…for the scanner I was pleasantly surprised to discover that my grandma possesses, probably thanks to an aunt (of mine). I spent the last couple of days scanning scads of family documents (not that I’m anywhere close to having them all.) Now I’ve got enough documents to keep me plugging away on my genealogy/family history stuff for another good while.

…for the stories both Grandma and Grandpa shared with me during this recent visit. My notebooks continue to collect the wealth, ready to be shared at some point–and now my new MP3 player contains a segment of one of Grandpa’s stories too.

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“Give ear, O my people, to my law;
Incline your ears to the words of my mouth.
I will open my mouth in a parable;
I will utter dark sayings of old,
Which we have heard and known,
And our fathers have told us.
We will not hide them from their children,
Telling to the generation to come the praises of the LORD,
And His strength and His wonderful works that He has done.

For He established a testimony in Jacob,
And appointed a law in Israel,
Which He commanded our fathers,
That they should make them known to their children;
That the generation to come might know them,
The children who would be born,
That they may arise and declare them to their children,
That they may set their hope in God,
And not forget the works of God,
But keep His commandments”

Psalm 78:1-7


Writing histories

Whenever I go to visit my grandparents, I make sure to have a notebook and pen handy. I never know when one or both of them will segue into a story–but I definitely know that my memory is too poor to retain all the details. So I jot myself notes as they talk–or as soon as possible afterwards.

I was not-so-surreptitiously taking notes on Monday when I realized that Grandma and Grandpa might like to know what the intended “final product” of all these notes is. So I opened the internet and dug out this narrative about Rosa May (Butterfield) Cook.

Rosa May was my Grandpa Cook’s Grandma, making her my great-great-grandma. I remember the vivid stories my mom used to tell me about great-grandma–the stories of the opossums, and the skunk, and the telephone. Rosa May is a member of the oldest generation that my mom and her siblings still remember–which made her an ideal target for my probing. A couple of years ago, I started pestering my family for stories about Rosa May–and I looked up as much as I could to corroborate anything they told me. The final result (which is nonetheless a work in progress) was my narrative.

The narrative was from an old version of my website. I had to save the page to my sister’s laptop and tweak the html in order to make it display properly. But I was finally able to open the web page and show Grandma. Grandma was impressed with the results and encouraged me to read it to Grandpa.

And so I did. I read the narrative to Grandpa, half afraid that I’d have gotten it all wrong. After all, Grandpa is the unchallenged family historian of the Cook Clan. Even with Parkinson’s and some dementia, his memory of family history is unparalleled. And he has a great deal of respect for our ancestors, too–a respect that insists that the truth be told down to the last detail.

But when I finished reading my narrative, Grandpa just looked at me and said, “Some others might question some parts, but that’s pretty much the story.” High praise from my Grandpa.

I don’t have the memories Grandpa has–he knew the generations that exist at most as stories for me. And I certainly don’t have his memory for the details of their lives. But my hope is that in my limited capacity, I can preserve some of our heritage–that might otherwise be lost–for the next generation.

I’m interested in the facts–the birth dates and wedding dates and times people moved–but I’m even more interested in the details of my ancestors lives. I want to know how they lived, what they cared about, what their houses looked like, what their favorite foods are, how they impacted others’ lives. I want to know the stories–the good, the bad, the nostalgic and the uncomfortable.

Which is why I want to preserve as much as I can in narrative format. I want to create a family history that is correct–but that is also entertaining. I may be interested in my family history–but I’m not content that I be the only one interested. I want to bring the family to life so that my generation and the generations after me will get interested too.

It’s a slow process–and most of my work is in the form of jotted notes in the dozens of journals kept in my closet. But someday, maybe, my part in the history will be complete–and I’ll pass the history on to the next generation to write. And maybe, if I’m lucky, they’ll write my story too.


A Little Country Church

Yesterday, I attended the morning worship service at the little country church my mother grew up in.

A cousin hands us the program before we file in to the back row, where a shortened pew leaves room for Grandpa’s wheelchair. We open our programs and find the hymns in the hymnal. An older parishioner realizes that the hymn board still lists last week’s hymns. He corrects the board as I idly wonder why Virginia has not yet taken her place at the organ.

My cousin and another man act as the accolytes, and we wait for the pastor to appear. When the vacancy pastor emerges from the back room, my unasked question receives an answer. Virginia is gone, so we’ll be singing with a CD recording.

We sit for the opening hymn and the pastor cues up the CD player with a little remote. As strains of an organ diffuse through the building, I sing unfamiliar words to a familiar tune, played with unfamiliarly correct timing. The timing throws off more than just I and we lose ourselves a couple of times.

Nonetheless, the service flows smoothly enough. The new hymnal throws me off a few times. You’d think that I’d be more flexible than I am. After all, I only worship with a liturgy when I’m here at St. Paul Venus. I am only familiar enough with the liturgy to be distressed when something changes–it throws me off when the words I’m reading don’t jibe with the words my head thinks they should be speaking. It’s the little things that throw me off–a “You” where I remember a “Thee”.

When the service ends, we make our way to the narthex. The men open both doors to get Grandpa’s wheelchair through, then circle at the bottom of the steps to discuss whatever they do. We women bunch up in the narthex, exchanging greetings. One woman says she remembers my older sister from Bible study, but Grandma’s pretty sure she’s actually remembering me. I vaguely remember being rather talkative at an after-church Bible study during one visit.

I remember us kids swinging on the rail along the front steps. We’d play on the green indoor-outdoor carpeting until one of the ladies told us they had Sunday school ready for us. So we trooped down to the basement for Sunday school. At first, there were other kids; but by my later elementary years, we were the only kids in Sunday school. Whoever was in charge of Sunday school had something ready in case some kids showed up, but children were few and far between. I no longer fill the “kid” category–and Marlene and Richard were celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary with donuts in the basement–so there wasn’t any Sunday school following our service.

St. Paul Venus celebrated 95 years this spring. 95 years of baptizing babies, confirming young eighth graders, sending graduates off to school. 95 years of returning children, new grandchildren, great-grandchildren home on holidays. St. Paul reflects the neighborhood–aging, dwindling, reluctantly changing as necessity demands.

It’s a wonder the St. Paul Venus congregation still exists. In a rural community where most of the parishioners are retirees–or would be if they could afford to retire–there’s hardly the money to support a pastor. In fact, it’s been years since St. Paul has been able to pay a pastor’s salary. A nearby parish shares its pastor for an hour and a half every Sunday morning. Tithes pay for heating and electricity.

I don’t know how much longer this little country church will stand. Venus, Nebraska is little more than a historical postscript. Who knows how much longer before St. Paul follows the town.

I can’t help but feel melancholy as I think of this little church someday being forgotten. For when it is forgotten, so will a great deal of my history and my family’s history. St. Paul Venus features prominently in the stories of my past.

Grandpa’s favorite story is of looking at a cute young Carol Pierce on the Sunday school bench. They were both preschoolers, but Grandpa says he looked over at her one week and thought “My, that Carol Pierce is awful pretty. When I grow up, she’s gonna be my girlfriend.” The next week, he looked over and thought a variation on his first thought: “My, that Carol Pierce is awful pretty. When I grow up, she’s gonna be my wife!” And sure enough, when they were grown, Carol Pierce became his wife.

They were married in the very church where at least fifteen years prior Ronald Cook had decided he would like to marry Carol Pierce. They baptized each of their twelve children in this same church–and saw them confirmed there. At least two of their daughters were married at St. Paul, and a few grandchildren were baptized there as well. When Grandma and Grandpa’s progeny expanded to no longer fit within their home, they moved family gatherings to the church.

I remember playing games in the church basement before moving upstairs to sing hymns around the organ or Aunt Nellie’s electric piano. We all rifled through the hymnals, searching for our favorites, while the kids threw out suggestion after suggestion. There wasn’t a dry eye in our familial congregation when Grandpa asked for his favorites: “In the Garden” or “On Christ the Solid Rock I stand”.

I remember Grandpa standing up to tell his stories after dinner. He’d tell us the story of Grandma and him on the Sunday school bench, and the story of the man who encouraged him and Grandma to “Be fruitful and increase”. He’d tell of how proud he is of his sons-in-law–he feels that they take more after his father-in-law than him.

And I remember the slide show Aunt Martha put together for their wedding anniversary celebration one year. We were watching it in the church basement when a reproduction of a the postcard he sent Grandma from Korea came onto the screen. “Turn it over,” Grandpa yelled. Sure enough, the next slide showed the back of the card–Grandpa was coming home. I’m sure I wasn’t the only one crying. He made it back safely after his time on the front lines in Korea–back to his bride.

My memories of the little country church are only the beginning of the histories that building could tell. The photo albums I perused yesterday held few familiar faces–but I could recognize St. Paul Venus in the background, telling the stories of the generations before.

St. Paul Venus