I’m super excited–my Grandma just e-mailed me back about spending Spring Break with her and Grandpa. She wrote, “Grandpa says, ‘tell Rebekah we would be honored if she would spend her spring break with us instead of going to Florida.’ I second the motion.” So, I’ll go up on Monday morning and stay until Wednesday or Thursday. I so need the opportunity to rest, to focus on Christ, to get away from everything. Traveling, in and of itself, isn’t enough. I don’t need to get away from a place. I need to get away from doing. I need to go to a place where I can just be. Grandpa and Grandma’s is that kind of place–as Grandma said in her e-mail: “Life here gets pretty boring so you should be able to do a lot of reading, tv, walking, cedar tree cutting, and maybe even a scrabble game or two.” There’s nothing I’d love more.
I have some serious thinking to do. The Key Laborers Retreat I didn’t attend impacted my life greatly. The speaker talked about how any goal other than Christ’s glory is an idol. Talk about immediate conviction. As my small group shared their thoughts and recollections, I was struck to the heart. I do so many things–so many good things–but all too often, my goal is to fulfill myself or to “do something for God” rather than to truly worship God with all I do.
That was Wednesday afternoon. Wednesday night after Z-360 (the youth group I sponsor for), Jason (the youth pastor I serve under) approached me. He shared that he felt like God was telling me to slow down, focus–gave me a few sheets of questions and Scriptures he thought God wanted him to share with me. I got home and studied them–ouch. Martha and Mary–how long must I study those passages before I learn something? Luke 10:40 says, “But Martha was distracted with much service.” Ouch. How often am I distracted by all my service? Z-360, Nursery, Food Net, Sunday School, Discipling and being discipled–Driven to make something happen; forgetting to sit at Christ’s feet. Jesus’ response is so fitting, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.” In reality, my service is filthy rags–it will be destroyed. Yet there is one thing that will not destroyed, and that is what is done in Christ. Lord, give me the grace to not be distracted with much serving and rather to sit at your feet.